in too deep

Standing in the middle of the road, torn between two sides and you just don't know which one to go to. With a terrible yet amazing feeling inside, you wish someone could just make it stop or at least go away for the time being, but then again; it's that exact weird feeling that makes you feel complete. You just feel numb and you wish you could just feel something or at least something different. You try all the methods ever invented in the history of mankind but it still seems impossible to make it stop. It gets worse with every memory you share and every thought of him, you've even ran out of words to describe it. Those times when a mere a sight of him is enough to bring a smile on your face and seeing him smile just brightens your day even more. Then in time you realise that you are in too deep!